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Onward

With all the excitement of last weekend, things fell apart a little on Monday night and then I got some kind of gastro bug which lasted a couple of days. My eating has been good with some extras but I have been gentle to myself because my system is not quite right. I seem to be on the mend now. I have kept up my exercise and have only just finished my Up and Running workout for today. So, things are ok. I am still here, I am still looking forward.

I did have a wonderful time of reflection last weekend.

I have put some new timeframes in my spreadsheet so that I will keep looking ahead. 9 weeks – 9 more weeks of consistent steady effort.

I went op shopping again this morning. I needed some new trousers for work as mine are now on the slightly loose side. I found some today and am really happy with them, they look good and fit well. I like clothes shopping now 🙂

And, that’s about all for now…. 🙂

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Thursday….

I hab another head cold. This is my third cold this year – and over our summer. I know where it comes from… Daycare. My little one is in daycare 2 days a week and his immune system is being challenged and now so is mine.

It is only a head cold, so while I did not do my 40 min walk today at lunch I did do a 30 min walk this evening with the pram.

This week, I am doing well so far. I am eating a little more than previous weeks – I added a point back in and I am making sure I am eating all of my points every day (which is almost up to my kJ target). I think I will spend this week and next week counting in both systems and see what results I get at weigh in. I spent some more time today looking at the numbers and reassuring myself that I am ok. I did a little forecast for the rest of the year in terms of weightloss and kJ intake and am happy with how things look. I just need to keep on with the exercise, keep on with watching my portion sizes and intake and I will get there.

7 weeks of the new routine

and these are my stats:
Start weight (3/1/2011) 140.9kg (310 lbs)
Current weight 127.9 kg (281.4 lbs)
This weeks loss 1kg (2.2 lbs)
Total lost 13.0kg (28.6 lbs)

Hurray for the loss! And Hurray for a loss of 1kg. I was starting to worry that I was losing weight too quickly. On the weekend I spent a couple of hours working out what my energy intake should be to maintain where I am and to lose at rates of 0.5kg and 1kg a week. Then I converted a ‘normal’ day from points to kilojoules to see how they compared. It took a while but in the end I was looking at the screen which said I was having the right amount of food for a 1kg loss a week. Which is what I wanted to see. I guess that I just needed the reassurance that I was doing the right thing because I don’t check in with anyone officially about what I am doing. I wanted to know that I was being sensible and healthy and that I should just stick to what I am doing.

I have this urge to tweak things at the moment. It is good that I am thinking and really conscious of what I am doing but I also need to be patient and consistent. I can’t change things every couple of weeks. I was reading one book last weekend which suggested when setting goals and making incremental changes that you should look at it over a one month period. Set a goal and make plans, implement and give it 21 days to see how the changes are going. Then review and set new goals, make plans and implement. I like this in theory but I am too impatient at the moment. It want to do it all now!!!

One of the changes I am thinking of making is shifting from the WW points system to simply counting kilojoules. I am not going to WW, I am not even using the current system in Australia (they changed in November). All the packaging of their products is going to change to the new ProPoints and I won’t be able to use it to count for my points. I don’t want to join to get the new material. I want to know what I am eating, I want to be able to manage my own intake. So, part of the calculations on the weekend were getting my head around what do I need in terms of food intake, how do I calculate it now and into the future. And if I do shift to something else, how am I going to record my food intake in an easy way. What I have now is *so* easy. I have an app on my phone and I think it is brilliant. I need something of a similar convenience to make it work for me. So, I am looking for phone apps and calorie counting spreadsheets on the internet and I am playing in excel with developing my own so that I can keep a file on my phone and update it where ever I am and then synch it to my computer at home. (Or use GoogleDocs but I there doesn’t seem to be a good GoogleDocs app for android systems? Why is that???) This is not a change I will be making soon, but it is something that I am looking into for the next few months.

The past week I went from having a cold, to having a light gastro bug, to having sinusitis. I was not a happy camper. I could not exercise, I wasn’t hungry some days but was emotional and frustrated and wanted to eat. But I had no sense of taste for most of the week. So, I did not have a great week and I was worried that I was not eating enough overall. And so, when I had the time I looked at what I was eating and am pleased I did that. I was able to go walking on the first day and the last day of the week. And overall, in the week, I kept within my food allocation. And in terms of my food, I was within my allocation when you look at the week as a whole.

A new week. I am not going to try and change what I am doing. I want to see that I get another steady loss at the end of this week. I need to be patient and consistent. It is the choices I make today about what I eat and how I move that will add up. And I am getting really close to a 10% loss from my start weight. I might make it next Monday – I will need a 1.1kg (2.6 lb) loss.

Lamb Tagine

I didn’t feel much like cooking yesteday and I didn’t want to make something new and not be able to taste it. So, I made something new that I could also freeze and have again next week. My man said that it tasted good and I thought it had a really good mouthfeel. The other benefit of this dish was that I got it all ready in the afternoon when my little boy was happy to play on his own and popped it in the oven for 3 hours. It turned out to be a very good meal to cook when sick.

I adapted the recipe from the CSIRO Total Wellbeing Diet Book 2.

Lamb Tagine
(Serves 4)

1 onion, roughly chopped
2 tsp crushed garlic
1/2 cup roughly chopped parsely
1/2 cup roughly chopped coriander (cilantro) leaf
1 green chilli, roughly chopped
2 tsp ground cinnamon
1/4 cup pitted dates, roughly chopped
1 lemon
800 g lean lamb shoulder, trimmed of fat and cut into 2 cm pieces
1 tbs olive oil
1 cup water
1 x 400g tin chopped tomatoes
1 cup couscous
1 cup boiling water
Additional fresh coriander, chopped

Preheat the oven to 160’C.

Blend the onion, garlic, parsley, coriander, chilli, cinnamon, dates and the zest of the lemon in a food processor until smooth. Set aside.

Heat a cast iron casserole dish over high heat. Coat the lamb with oil and cook, in small batches, for 5 minutes, or until browned. Return all of the lamb pieces to the dish, add the paste and stir to coat the lamb with the paste. Cook for 3-5 minutes, until aromatic. Add the water and tomatoes and mix well. Bring to a boil, cover and place in the oven for 2 and a half hours. Stir and return uncovered to the oven for 30 minutes. Remove from the oven and cover to keep warm.

Place the couscous in a a bowl and pour over boiling water and the juice of the lemon. Cover and sit for 5 minutes. Fluff up with a fork. Stir through the additional fresh coriander.

Serve the tagine with couscous and steamed vegetables.

Today I am having a grey day

I used to call days like these grey days, where it seems that all the colour has been sucked out of my view. I don’t want to get up, have a shower or move. I am down and I feel fat.

I am not a good sick person – have I said that already? Last week I had a bad cold. I started getting better on the weekend and then I got gastro. That was only a 24 hour thing but my cold regathered in my sinuses and yesterday it felt my head was about to explode. It has only been 10 days but I feel miserable.

I have been sitting at the ‘puter all morning trying to find some inspiration and motivation. I have been looking at weightloss blogs and fitness blogs. But I can’t find any that ring a chord with me.

Maybe today nothing will stand out.

Or maybe that is just bullshit.

I can choose to sit here and mope and whine and feel pathetic. Or I can choose to go and have a shower and get ready to go out this afternoon and catch up with some friends. See what I am trying to do, I am trying to break the grey cloud that is before my eyes and let some sunlight in.

Why do I feel so down? It is more than just being sick. I don’t know. It is about being fat and not liking who I am. It is about my man not being a mind reader and knowing what to do when I am sick (he doesn’t get pathetic, he just is sick and gets over it. How does he do that?) and then getting impatient with me because I am not coping well. I feel so alone in everything. And I am putting out ‘stay away from me vibes’ when all I really want is some TLC.

I want to be fit and healthy. I want to be thin. I want to be attractive. I don’t want my fat in the way. I don’t want to die from being fat. I don’t want to screw up my little boy’s attitude to food.

Everything is all mixed up in my head and I can’t sort it. So I am clinging to my food counting. I can’t exercise because I am not well but I can write down everything I eat and stay within my allocation. I feel like I am losing control in parts of my life so I am going to be a control freak in this little aspect.

So do I chose to stay in today and hide from people? Probably not. I will go and have a shower, then prepare my lunch and my little boy’s lunch and then we will go out. Today’s challenge is to get out of the house.

Edit: I had a shower and got out of the house. Things are still subdued but not grey. I was not going to bother with an interesting meal tonight because I still don’t have my sense of taste back but I will cook something new that can also be frozen for later. I need to remember that all I need to do is make choices for today.

Repeat after me

Just because I am sick doesn’t mean I can eat crap.

Just because I am sick doesn’t mean I can eat crap.

Just because I am sick doesn’t mean I can eat crap.