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Saggy Baggy

I was out buying some new workout clothes this week. It is starting to get too warm to wear what I had been wearing, I need clothes that will wick!!! So, I was out in the shops and enjoying the choice I had. I also went looking for a new sports bra. I have started noticing on my runs that the sports bras that I have are starting to be less supportive as I lose more weight.

I was in the change room, trying on the sports bra. I looked in the mirror and jumped up and down a couple of times. That was not a good look. The bra worked just fine and that was not what bothered me.

I have lost 45kg in 10 months. And my skin is kind of too big for my body right now and I don’t like it. I quickly pulled a top over my head and then admired myself in the mirror because with clothes on I am looking pretty hot. But without… I am feeling increasingly self concious.

I ramped up the positive self talk… The loose skin is a sign that you have done so well! So what if belly and underarms and thighs are all saggy-baggy – be proud of that! Be proud of loose skin because it speaks of your determination, your commitment and your goals. And, this will change, this will not stay like this. Keep working, keep going and it will get better. It helped a little but not much, so, I made a deal with myself. I could by the cutest bra that I could find in the store. Because I could. Because I could pick any of the styles and it would fit. I have never had so much choice in clothes! I wandered the shop, picking up bras, putting them down and decided I was being silly. I don’t need a new bra to help me feel good about myself. It would be fun, but it is an extravagance at the moment. I can wait till I need to go down another size. I am ok. I am better with the baggy saggy belly than I am being size 24.

An excellent week

I have had a really good week, an excellent week, so far. I have exercised every day and I took the stairs at work as well. I have not had any chocolate, I had 2 biscuits at a games night that I had planned into my day but other than that, I have had no sweet treats. Last night I really wanted some chocolate but instead had mango, yoghurt and some almonds. It was filling, there was some sweetness but also the crunchiness of the almond. Another good thing was that it took time to make and eat; much more so than grabbing the chocolate out of the cupboard. And I got to feel smug about it.

I have liked having very simple straightforward goals this week. I know what my plan is for the day, I follow the plan, I mentally tick the things on my list. I feel good in my body.

And because I was feeling good in myself yesterday, I went to the shops at lunch and popped into a clothes shop that I like. About 6 weeks ago I tried on a dress with them but didn’t buy it because I couldn’t justify the expense. Yesterday, the same dress was marked down by 75%. I bought it. It is a summer daytime dress and completely different to what I am used to wearing; it is fitted, sleeveless, bright colours, horizontal stripes. It fitted 6 weeks ago (just) and now it feels and looks fabulous.

This week it has been about one day at a time and today all I have to think about is making healthy choices today. That is achievable.

Onward

With all the excitement of last weekend, things fell apart a little on Monday night and then I got some kind of gastro bug which lasted a couple of days. My eating has been good with some extras but I have been gentle to myself because my system is not quite right. I seem to be on the mend now. I have kept up my exercise and have only just finished my Up and Running workout for today. So, things are ok. I am still here, I am still looking forward.

I did have a wonderful time of reflection last weekend.

I have put some new timeframes in my spreadsheet so that I will keep looking ahead. 9 weeks – 9 more weeks of consistent steady effort.

I went op shopping again this morning. I needed some new trousers for work as mine are now on the slightly loose side. I found some today and am really happy with them, they look good and fit well. I like clothes shopping now ๐Ÿ™‚

And, that’s about all for now…. ๐Ÿ™‚

weekend write up and measurements

The weekend was good. I made some good choices and I made some not so good choices. Good choices were walking both days, being sensible at yum cha and the party. Bad choices included 1 piece cookies and cream rocky road. I regretted that almost immediately because after I ate it I went to a park with the small one and we went on this spinny ride which made me feel sick. The sweetness and the greasy feeling in my mouth made me feel worse than I would otherwise. And it also wasn’t as good as I was hoping for!! Another bad decision was the lemon lime and bitters I got for a drink at dinner. My dad wanted to get us drinks, I had said no to alcohol, someone else asked for a LLB and I jumped in and got one, too. It was so sweet! I looked up the kJ value later and was shocked at how much that one drink contained. Next time, I won’t get a drink just to be polite. Better yet, I will work out a fallback drink option so I won’t get caught out again. And then, getting home yesterday, I was tired and hungry and I snacked and grazed all afternoon. Most of the damage I did on the weekend I did after I got back. I had planned for the social occasions and the travelling but I had given no thought to what happened once I got home. It is frustrating! Sometimes I think I have come so far and other times I see very little change in my behaviour. Small steps. I need to remember this is not about perfection, it is about improvement. And I can see so much improvement in this weekend!

And so, the scales are up a little today and I am not surprised about that. But rather than focus on that number, I thought I would take my measurements and post those instead ๐Ÿ™‚ I don’t take my measurements very often because they don’t seem to change that much if I do. Last time I recorded them was 3 months ago.

Bust – starting measurement: 130cm (52″)
Bust – 3 months ago: 117 cm (46.8″)
Bust – today: 107 cm (42.8″)

Waist – starting measurement: 137.5 cm (55″)
Waist – 3 months ago: 115 cm (46″)
Waist – today: 105 cm (42″)

Hips – starting measurement: 141 cm (56.4″)
Hips – 3 months ago: 124 (49.6″)
Hips – today: 115 cm (46″)

That is so very cool!!! I have noticed in the last month that my waist goes in. I like that my waist goes in ๐Ÿ™‚ I have been wearing clothes that show my shape off! It is really exciting. There are bits of me that I don’t like. I don’t like my hanging belly but I can also see it is getting smaller. I don’t like my flapping arms, I don’t like by baggy skin. But these parts of me also show me how far I have come. And I love my waist!

One thing I do for my skin is to exfoliate weekly and then apply moisturizer. I have an exfoliating glove and it is wonderful. I feel so clean and smooth after using it ๐Ÿ™‚ I started this routine in the hope that my skin will be stimulated to regenerate and so would shrink down. I think it has helped; at least I feel better for it than doing nothing.

I got alot of positive comments from my family over the weekend. My younger sister said she is so proud of me for taking responsibility for my health and my body. She has done something similar in the last few years, although not starting from as large a point as me. And she looks amazing. She is one of my inspirations so her saying that meant an awful lot. I talked with my older sister about some of the reasons we eat; how it is about comfort and acceptance and self-worth and trying to create new patterns. My cousin and her man saw me from the car as they were driving up and they did not know it was me. Most of my conversations at the party were about food or exercise or getting healthy; what I eat, what exercise I do, how much further I want to go; their plans for getting healthy and the action they are taking. It was encouraging and affirming. That I am an inspiration is a little alarming! I still have so far to go. But it is also such an honour to be told that someone looks at what I have done and they are inspired to make changes in their own lives.

This is the last week of my 40 week plan. There will be some reflection this week about how far I have come and where I want to go. I might look at some new goals for the summer to keep me focussed. This is not the end.

Move it on out, girl… you will feel better for it

Lower back ache and general discomfort and grumpiness. I hate this time of the month. The best thing I have found to help with the pain is exercise. The thing I want to do least right now is exercise. I will fit it in today, even if it is a walk to the shops with my boy. The sun is out, it is a beautiful day. I will go to the shops soon. And tomorrow morning I have my Up and Running workout planned. I will do that one.

On Monday at work I was at a morning tea for a colleague who is going on leave. There was a little speech by her boss. I was sitting on a 2 seater couch with 2 other people. There were three of us and we were sitting comfortably!!! That absolutely thrilled me ๐Ÿ™‚ I got good comments on what I was wearing as well. And it might be my imagination but I am starting to get appreciative looks. Actually I don’t care if it is my imagination ๐Ÿ™‚ I am enjoying the idea of it.

My special dress arrived last night, the one I bought at the craft fair, that helps me celebrate my 40 week commitment and my success so far. (See Celebrating Success) I tried it on and it is beautiful. I love that it is the style that I can keep wearing as I lose weight – it is a wrap it up, tie it up dress. So, do I wear it to a picnic this weekend or do I wait till I complete my 40 weeks?

Post party wrap

The party was a lot of fun. We had a lot of people here and my man had a wonderful time.

And I did ok. At some point in the afternoon I got my chewing gum out. I wanted to eat – there were so many yummy things about but I could feel I was full. Chewing gum helped trick my brain for an hour. I did something different to the weekend before! I didn’t have any alcohol during in the afternoon, I know that I find it harder to focus when I have had a few drinks. But I also don’t like feeling deprived. So, I made some iced strawberry tea and mixed it with soda water and it tasted great and looked fab and it did not matter that I was not drinking alcohol.

After the party, it had been arranged that some of the girls with small ones would go out and have some cocktails. It was fun to dress up and go out and have some very pretty drinks. I had the fruity drinks rather than the creamy ones. And I looked very good ๐Ÿ™‚ I wore a black fitted velvet sleeveless top with flattering pants. I felt good.

Today I am doing well. I did not sleep all that well, a sure sign that I had too much rich food yesterday. But this morning I am in a good place. I stepped on the scales and they are up but I have kept it below the three digits. I have had a light breakfast and I have been for a 60 minute walk up the hill. I am drinking plenty of water and now I have had my coffee my brain is working again. I will plan lunch and dinner soon to make sure there are fresh vegetables, some protein and carbs; simple and healthy. My man actually did most of the putting away last night when I was out. And he is amazing, there is actually very little food in the house that I would want to snack on today and take me off track. He is the best man.

I want to sleep well tonight, I have my Up and Running workout tomorrow morning ๐Ÿ™‚

Celebrating success :)

I am not sure how I will go tomorrow on the scales. I had an ok week foodwise but with very little exercise. Things were just really busy. I was out on Friday night and then over the weekend I had a short trip to a family party. This morning I went for a good 45 minute walk with some jogging intervals but also had a small piece of cake (which was delicious!).

I am looking forward to getting in more exercise next week because I have really missed it.

At the party on Saturday night it was really good to see my extended family. I last saw them in mid December when I was at my heaviest. I recieved so many positive comments last night and it was just lovely to have their support and encouragement to keep going. I looked amazing, too, wearing one of my pink tops I bought a few weeks ago (see the pink entry here). And foodwise, I had taken carrot sticks, capsicum slices and cherry tomatos to put out with the chips/cheese/dips/crackers and I ate the vegetables. I did not have that much food for dinner and I skipped dessert entirely (I was really happy with that call, I did not feel like I missed out at all. How good is that!). For drinks, I made some unsweetened berry ice tea which I mixed with soda water and it was bubbly and pink and delicious. I didn’t want the alcohol with my special tea to hand ๐Ÿ™‚

So, tomorrow, I will get up, weigh in and go for my morning walk. Whatever happens on the scale, I am ready to keep going. The scale is still an important measure for me but I also have other measures that are becoming more important – wanting to exercise, making good food choices and feeling good in my skin. These are, in the end, more important than the number ๐Ÿ™‚