Monthly Archives: August 2011

Creamy Mushroom Soup

I will post a recipe that is not soup soon. But this one is really nice and I just want to post a recipe today.

I am still loving the soup maker. I have made more pumpkin soup and today I made chunky chicken and veg soup for lunch. But then I made Creamy Mushroom Soup. It actually has no cream in it but is soo smooth and creamy. And it tastes delicious. I am really looking forward to having it for lunch tomorrow. I am going to have a toasted cheese sandwich with it πŸ™‚

Creamy Mushroom Soup
1 tsp olive oil
150g leek, sliced roughly
120g potato, peeled and roughly diced
300g mushroom, sliced
2 cups stock (chicken or vegetable)
Salt and Pepper to taste

Heat the oil in a saucepan, add the leek, stir and saute till soft. I then threw all the ingredients in the soupmaker and pressed the ‘smooth’ button and walked away. But otherwise, I would add the potato, mushroom, stock and cook for 20 minutes and then blend. Add salt and pepper to taste. And, if I were not making it in the soupmaker, I would double the quantity.

Serves 3
Nutritional Information
Total: 1233kJ, 6.7 g fat, 21.9 g protein, 28.1 g carbohydrate, 11.3 g fibre
Per serve: 411kJ, 2.2 g fat, 7.3 g protein, 9.4 g carb, 3.8 g fibre

40kg is gone!

I have reached another goal! And I wasn’t expecting to this week, what with the weekend and little exercise in the last week. Some of it is hormones, some of it is eating well after a period of hit and miss with food. Whatever the rhyme and reason of the scales, I have now lost 40kg. I find it quite incredible that I have achieved so much this year with my health and fitness. I am 40kg lighter than I was at the start of the year.

Today’s stats:
Start weight: 140.9 kg (310 lbs)
Today’s weight: 100.9 kg (222 lbs)
Loss this week: 1.5 kg (3 lbs)
Total lost: 40.0 kg (88 lbs)

I am so excited to be this close to losing one of the numbers of the scale… at some point this week, I will lose the ‘1’ out the front and go down to only two numbers. That was something I really noticed on the weekend that motivated me to eat well; I was thinking about weighing less than 100kg. And it really will happen this week if I exercise and eat properly. I am so excited. It is the same concept as ‘onederland’ when you weigh in in lbs but for kg and it is a really big deal for me; although, I am also looking forward to onederland πŸ™‚

This morning I got up, went walking and included some jogging intervals in that. I am looking forward to the Up and Running training starting next week. The clouds were just amazing this morning with the sunrise. It was beautiful.

I have lost 40kg. That is 28.5% of my starting weight. I am so proud of me πŸ™‚

Celebrating success :)

I am not sure how I will go tomorrow on the scales. I had an ok week foodwise but with very little exercise. Things were just really busy. I was out on Friday night and then over the weekend I had a short trip to a family party. This morning I went for a good 45 minute walk with some jogging intervals but also had a small piece of cake (which was delicious!).

I am looking forward to getting in more exercise next week because I have really missed it.

At the party on Saturday night it was really good to see my extended family. I last saw them in mid December when I was at my heaviest. I recieved so many positive comments last night and it was just lovely to have their support and encouragement to keep going. I looked amazing, too, wearing one of my pink tops I bought a few weeks ago (see the pink entry here). And foodwise, I had taken carrot sticks, capsicum slices and cherry tomatos to put out with the chips/cheese/dips/crackers and I ate the vegetables. I did not have that much food for dinner and I skipped dessert entirely (I was really happy with that call, I did not feel like I missed out at all. How good is that!). For drinks, I made some unsweetened berry ice tea which I mixed with soda water and it was bubbly and pink and delicious. I didn’t want the alcohol with my special tea to hand πŸ™‚

So, tomorrow, I will get up, weigh in and go for my morning walk. Whatever happens on the scale, I am ready to keep going. The scale is still an important measure for me but I also have other measures that are becoming more important – wanting to exercise, making good food choices and feeling good in my skin. These are, in the end, more important than the number πŸ™‚

Kaleidoscope view

I like who I am. That is a good starting point.

About a decade ago, I was in a bad situation. Part of the consequence of that situation was that I lost my sense of self. I did not know who I was, what I wanted, found it difficult to form opinions and more difficult to vocalise them. I was scared and felt trapped. I was not safe, there was no respect for me at home and I had very little respect for myself. I did have enough respect for myself to leave.

A year or so after that I had found a good counsellor. One of the things I spent alot of time working on was who I was. At the time I felt defined by the bad situation but I came to understand that was just one aspect of who I was and that aspect did colour alot of other things about me at that time. That aspect is still a part of who I am but has very little impact on my day-to-day anymore. Building a concept of who I was involved several of these aspects and all of them impact to some extent. Then there are the other things about me – skills/talents/preferences. These also help define who I am. For example, I like reading, I like making things, I like cooking and am good at it; and I don’t like watching or participating in organised sport. These are tangible things about who I am that other people see and also know about me. There are also some fundamentals that define me – I am a woman, live in Australia, white anglo-saxon protestant upbringing. This is a very basic and simplified summary of the work with my counsellor on this issue.

I look at all of this and to me it works like a kaleidoscope. The aspects are like colour filters that fall in and out of view. The fundamentals and preferences/skills are like the jewels that are in the kaleidoscope. All the components are there but it shifts and changes. The aspects give their different hues depending on how dominant they are at the time. Who I am changes but is made up of the same components.

And so, I like who I am. I like having this understanding of who I am.

I am coming to realise that there is a part of me that I have never really addressed. It is an aspect that I am actively aware of, it is dominating at the moment and I want to reduce it’s influence. I have always been the fat girl. I am working on changing that. Part of me wants to keep changing it and part of me wants things to stay as they are now. Being fat has always been part of who I was. When I left school, I was bigger than I currently am now; that was 18 years ago. In the last 18 years I have only once made it close to where I am now but the bad situation that I described above happened and that was that. So, for my entire adult life, I have been fat. I have used it to avoid doing things that I did not want to do; I have hid behind it; I have used it to fade out at social occasions; I have used it to be invisible in public. I had accepted that being fat was ok.

But I know who I am and I like who I am. I am not defined by my physical size. Sure, ‘fat girl’ has been an aspect of who I am but it is not me. I am so much more. I have so many skills and I know what I like and what I don’t like. I need to start saying goodbye and letting go of ‘fat girl’. It is really hard to replace something with nothing. So, I need to start celebrating something new and help build this new aspect of who I am. How am I going to do this? I will enjoy the journey – enjoy the exercise, challenge myself with exercise. I will enjoy what I am eating and keep that interesting. I will enjoy my body, wear clothes that fit and that make me feel good. I will think about my goals of being healthy into my future. They are some big ideas and I don’t quite know how I will make it happen day to day. I will think about it. I also don’t want to be defined by the fact that I was fat… so ‘former fat girl’ doesn’t really work for me. It will be there but I want to work on the idea of ‘healthy for life’ as my new aspect.

I don’t need to be scared about this change. Sometimes it feels like it is all unknown from here. But it isn’t because I can apply the same things that have got me this far to the next stage of my journey. I know I can lose weight, I have already succeeded there. I know that I can get clothes that fit on the internet or at second hand shops that will get me through the changing sizes. I know that I can manage my food and exercise consistently. I know that I am getting better at managing my stress with strategies which don’t involve eating. I know I have the support of my family and friends. The fact that I don’t know what I will look like or feel like at a healthy weight is ok and is actually only a small part of the journey. Afterall, I like who I am.

The great unknown

I go to work today but I am going to a different position. This should help. This should make a big difference.

The week was busy and stressful. I was still stressed over the weekend. My guess is all that nervous energy is helping me weight wise because I have not been consistent with exercise in the last week. I will take this week’s loss as a gift and encouragement to continue.

Starting weight: 140.9 kg (310 lbs)
Today’s weight: 102.4 kg (225.3 lbs)
This weeks loss: 0.9kg (2 lbs)
Total lost 38.5 kg (84.7 lbs)

I have some big thoughts floating around in my head. They are around the fact that I don’t know what I will look like if I lose more weight, I don’t know what I will feel like in my body. This is uncharted territory for me. Which makes it kind of scary. Where I am is known and feels good in comparison to where I have come from. So, I will be working on these thoughts because I don’t want to sabotage myself.

It is going to be a good week at work. It is going to be a good week at home. The days are getting longer and warmer. This week, I choose to be healthy.

Zucchini and Corn Soup

I won a Morphy Richards Soup Maker a month ago and it arrived on Monday. Today I made some soup that is just wonderful.

The Soup Maker – I had some problems on Monday night. We did not get off to a smooth start. Actually, the soup I made was very smooth. The problem was I was not using enough stock and the pumpkin kept catching and burning on the base. It was frustrating. But I worked out what was happening and today I gave the soup maker a second chance.

It is remarkably simple to use. You throw in about 600g of chopped up soup ingredients (so far I have used roast pumpkin; pea and ham; zucchini and corn), add 500mL stock, flavourings, put the lid on and press ‘smooth’ or ‘chunky’ and soon you have 3-4 serves of soup. If you need more soup, you can make a second batch straight away. It is easy to clean with a wipe over the lid and a rinse and wipe of the body. If the ingredients catch and burn it is a little trickier to clean but not that bad now that I think about it. When you select ‘smooth’ the blender function works well and the soup comes out smooth. I have not yet made a chunky soup but I will be looking for something to try on the weekend.

Today I made pea and ham soup for lunch and it was easy, great and I was happy with it. Then I made something for lunch tomorrow. We had some home made chicken stock in the freezer that had citrus, ginger and garlic tones. I had some zucchini in the fridge which I also wanted to use. So, I decided to throw in some corn, soy and sweet chilli sauce. I snuck a taste at the end. It is very good. I am really looking forward to lunch tomorrow!

Zucchini and Corn Soup
300 g zucchini, shopped
300g frozen corn kernals
1 tbs sweet chilli sauce
1 tbs salt reduced soy
2 tsp minced garlic
2 tsp minced ginger
500 mL stock (chicken or vegetable)
1 shallot, finely sliced

Combine the ingredients in the soupmaker, press ‘smooth’. Serve when finished, garnished with finely sliced shallots.

Or, combine the ingredients in a saucepan, bring to the boil, reduce the heat and simmer for 20 minutes. Process in a food processor or with a stick blender till smooth. Serve, garnished with the shallots.

Nutritional information
total: 2226 kJ, 7.6 g fat, 19.7 g protein, 81.5 g carb, 14.1 g fibre
per serve (3 serves) 742 kJ, 2.5g fat, 6.6g protein, 27 g carb, 4.7 g fibre

Spring has Sprung

This morning I got up and was going to do my DVD workout. And then I looked outside. The sky was just starting to lighten. It looked beautiful. I changed my mind and let myself quietly out the door into the cool morning. I have not been on early morning walks since mid May. But there is enough light in the mornings now and today it was not too cold. The clouds changed from grey to pink to white as the sun came up. I walked up the hill and did what used to be my hour walk in 45 minutes. I did some jogging but it was a little too cold for me – my arms were not moving smoothly and my breathing did not level out. I have missed my Monday morning walks πŸ™‚ It was beautiful and affirming.

I managed to reign in my eating back to my target kJ range in the last week. I did some really good workouts last week as well. I am very pleased that my stress has had minimal impact on my weight loss journey.

Starting weight: 140.9 kg (310 lbs)
Today’s weight: 103.3 kg (227 lbs)
Gain since last weigh in (2 weeks ago): 0.1kg (0.2 lbs)
Total lost: 37.6 kg (82.7 lbs)

I have 8 weeks to go until I complete the commitment I made to myself at the end of last year. 40 weeks. I was aiming for 40 weeks of healthy living; and now I have 8 left. This last month has been a hard one for me. I have already exceeded the goals I set myself at the beginning of the year but I don’t think that I can make my revised goals given the last few weeks. I have decided to not worry about the goals. I have a lot of very exciting weightloss milestones coming up – loss of 40kg, weighing less than 100kg (with a loss of 41kg), having lost 30% of my start weight (with a loss of 42.3 kg), loss of 45kg and loss of 100lbs (46kg). These milestones are very motivating for me and I am looking forward to marking them off. Actually, seeing the scales get closer to 100 is something I am not sure I quite believed would happen when I started out. But it is happening and it will continue. I also have some exercise motivation in the form of my Up and Running online running course. It starts in 3 weeks and will take me over the 40 week mark. So, I am not going to worry about the goals themselves because they will happen if I keep track of my eating and keep up the exercise. This is my focus for the next 8 weeks. Eat well, exercise consistently.

Celebrating success

I never did go for my massage after the first 13 weeks to reward myself. I was going to do it after 20 weeks but didn’t. I found out prices and went up to book but they were closed. And I did not get any further.

Today I went to a craft show and bought a dress. I wasn’t expecting dresses at the craft show. The style is a wrap around, tie it up, reverse the sides, can wear it in at least 10 different ways style of dress. There are many things I like about it. It is in my colours. It is gorgeous. It fits me now and it will fit me as I continue to lose weight. It was not cheap but if I had rewarded myself at 13 and 26 weeks like I had planned, I have come out about even.

I don’t have my dress yet. That is the other thing I like. I will get the dress in 4 weeks or so. I will have it for the beginning of october, when I celebrate completing 40 weeks of my plan.

This dress is my reward to myself, to celebrate my success, my body, my journey and my future.


Hello! Still here.

Trying to eat reasonably healthy, trying to get in exercise. Succeeding for some of the time as well.

Trying to move jobs. Making progress there.

Today I went walking at lunch. And jogging. Today I jogged for 1.36 km (which is 0.84 miles) in 9.20 minutes. Next goals are to break 10 minutes and then 1 mile. And this week I paid for my online running course Up and Running Online, which is starting 5 September. Check it out at I am excited about the jogging.

Hopefully there will be new food on the weekend…

Monday check-in

Some things from today:
I started tracking food again, today. While I am over on my kJ target, at least I am tracking.

I went for an hour long walk with my man, the toddler and the puppy. The toddler is not going to accept riding in the pram for much longer. I enjoyed the walk.

I did not weigh in this morning. I am ok with that.

Overeating makes me feel sick. Oneday, I hope to remember this before I overeat, rather than later.

I am here, I am mostly managing. I will not give up much ground on this journey with this diversion. I have come too far and worked too hard.